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20/8/2000This is written on a laptop over a very slow modem link - so don't expect much. I'm in Sydney, and feeling very strange. I'm not bothering to correct spelling - this link is too painful, I'm confused, I'm really no longer sure what I want. Whether I want top stay here, or go home, or get back together with madi or play with mikey some more or what. Today -= was quite fun, shopping in newtown, breakfast, poetry in the cemetary with sydney goths - but its still prolly a bad day mentally. I keep thinking that I know what I want, but then think i dont, and then change my mind, and stuff happens that makes me feel alot less secure with the decidon s I have made, and like maybe they are wrong and i should change them. Lisa is having her baby today. I'm being an empath today and picking up the insecuritiys of those around me, yet failing to draw strengh from the other ones. |