Diary

So I'm going into surgery next week. How morbid is to morbid. I realise that sometimes people die under a general anesthetic. there is always a risk. So what do I do. Do I blithly go in there assuming everything will be okay and I'll be fine and dandy. I reckon I will be okay - not too worried. But I'm also a fan of being prepared. Damn those brownies and guides as a child :)

So I need to sort out some personal stuff. I need to nominate a next of kin. At the moment it's Madi, I'd like it to be Neef, but can't really be fucked doing the paperwork. So that means - if I die, Madi gets lots of money. Well first thing he has to do is pay my debts, not that thats much. Then he has money and he can move to canberra and start fresh and hopefully enjoy life. I'd like him to share tho - and give away some of the cash to my friends. I'd give Neef a big list, but again - its really Madi's problem at this point in time.

I've also got some stuff that's worth lots, either money wise or just to me personally. SOme of that should go to certain people. I guess the main one is my new computer. That's Mikey's, well it technically belongs to him anyway :), and he knows all the passwords which it is useless without. However, if he keeps working for HP and so doesn't need a second laptop, I'd prefer him to give it to Aveline who prolly needs it more.

I want Neef and Megan to have the first pick of my books, and Morgan and Aveline the second pick.. I want Julian to have the first pick of my video's and DVD's. I also want Georgie (blue hair) to have my new storyteller books and sandman comics. Madi gets first pick of my furniture, Mikey gets second pick. Aveline gets whatever she wants. After that I don't really know - I'd like my stuff to go to friends if they want it. After its all been taken, anything left should prolly go to a charity like Wesley or something. Oh - and I think Madi would be okay to take Jumble and love him, if not madi then someone....

Gosh isn't that depressing. I'm not going to die, but at least I've said it all. I am scared about the op, and I'm concerned about recovery times, and not being strong enough to use crutches and all sorts of stuff. Bleah.

I don't want to write depressing stuff -I want to write happy stuff - but I'm not in the best frame of mind after thinking all that.

Arcanacon was good, and I'm tired after it, I've also been thinking lots about relationships, but don't want to write that here yet.