Diary

well, it comes to this.

I want to go home this weekend, family is throwing a birthday thingy for my poppy, he turns 80 next wednesday, same day as I turn 26. I remember my 6th birthday, it was a big party on the same day for my poppy who was turning 60. Althrough my life I've been particularly close to my grandfather. The fact that we shared the same birthday was always something kind of special.

It's scary to think that there is a high likelyhood this will be his last birthday.

And so I really want to go home. But due to my stupid arthritis, there is a reasonable likelyhood that I won't be able to do the drive myself. I'm really only good for a couple of hours driving, and its at least 3 hours to my parents house. So I really need a second driver.

I asked a few people but there is too much stuff happening this weekend, Stuff thats important. Hell, if I go, I'll miss a friends 21st.

I really appreciate my friends. I don't like my family very much at all, they are not overly nice people, but still, I don't want to miss seeing my pop, hugging him and saying happy birthday to each other.

bleah, whibble, garg, I guess I'll decide saturday morning when i wake up and see how healthy I feel. Wish for good weather please, sunny warm weather makes me feel better...